Breaking my heart

Having a child changes everything. I cant watch a commercial that is slightly sappy without crying. I watch every movie/tv show that has anything to do with extreme love or loss and just weep. I think about her on special days and what it will be like and I can already feel an overwhelming joy for those great moments. But how do you explain to someone what that is like... I don't think I can explain, well... maybe. It is so intense and strong that I ache. I hurt. I love. I wish. I dream harder than I ever have. I  am everything so much more.

Today Lily was walking up the stairs with me and talking to me about something in her own special language. She is quickly picking up words but its the combo of those words that makes it so amazing. She is so precious the way she approaches life. So soft and happy. Peaceful. She creates peace in my life and shows me peace in the most stressful of moments. I am amazed at/by her. Who knew...