Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Friday, October 29, 2010
"Single" Nicci
I started a new blog mainly because I don't use my old account anymore and it was more a pain to change over then anything.
The last couple of weeks I have had these thoughts..ones that I can't always exact words to but more of a general feeling. We all know that over two and a half years ago I married my best friend. We then moved to Lynchburg and that in itself was a hard transition. Next we welcomed Lily and quickly after moved into a new home. So many new things hasn't really enabled me to sit and think about it all and what that means.
The last couple of weeks though, as things have settled into routine and life has become as close to "normal" as I suspect it will ever be, I have been plagued with one big thought/realization...I am not single Nicci.
Now now I know that sounds silly and its not like I am not aware that I am married and have a child, both of which I love by the way, but it has just fully hit me that I am not the "single" person I used to be. I do not have the freedoms of having no responsibility for anything/one but myself. I cannot hop on a plane and travel the world without thinking twice. I do not have the same relationships with my girlfriends/guy friends that I used to. I don't even view the world threw the same lens anymore. Conversations aren't the same, thoughts and feelings aren't the same. Its crazy. I mean I know we are always growing and changing but never have I been more aware of this change then now!
I mean a million times over in life I feel like you hear people say you don't know until you have experienced it but never more than now do i really understand that thought process...
To be married is unlike anything I thought it would be. So much better but so much tougher. I mean I knew it wasn't a fairy tale but I didn't realize I would have this microscope to my life that would constantly be challenging me to smooth out those rough spots. I didn't realize what it means to be truly selfless. To put someone else before yourself. To hurt and love so much at the same time. And being a mother on top of it all is the second craziest thing ever!
Okay what I am saying is, most of my life I have had a hard time really being able to understand what some one else is going through while they experience it. I mean I have compassion and I can empathize with situations but unless I had experienced it myself I never really could connect with the emotion and change they experienced in life. (good or bad)
However there is nothing that has left a greater impression on my life then being married and having a child. I feel like I have entered a new world that only certain people were aware of and now that i am here it has changed my view on everything. It has given me a confidence in myself that i never had before. It has helped me to see the things that are really important and the things that are simply done out of selfish desire. I have had a chance to look at how I operated in life before and how some of my choices really left me wanting. I don't know why these two changes have opened so many new doors but I am happy they have. I was happy before but I beyond that now. I do wish for the old days at times especially when I am feeling particularly self absorbed, but I wouldn't change my life even if I could. The timing was just right and now I look forward to going through my future life experiences with this new perspective. And I happy to lay to rest "single" Nicci.
The last couple of weeks I have had these thoughts..ones that I can't always exact words to but more of a general feeling. We all know that over two and a half years ago I married my best friend. We then moved to Lynchburg and that in itself was a hard transition. Next we welcomed Lily and quickly after moved into a new home. So many new things hasn't really enabled me to sit and think about it all and what that means.
The last couple of weeks though, as things have settled into routine and life has become as close to "normal" as I suspect it will ever be, I have been plagued with one big thought/realization...I am not single Nicci.
Now now I know that sounds silly and its not like I am not aware that I am married and have a child, both of which I love by the way, but it has just fully hit me that I am not the "single" person I used to be. I do not have the freedoms of having no responsibility for anything/one but myself. I cannot hop on a plane and travel the world without thinking twice. I do not have the same relationships with my girlfriends/guy friends that I used to. I don't even view the world threw the same lens anymore. Conversations aren't the same, thoughts and feelings aren't the same. Its crazy. I mean I know we are always growing and changing but never have I been more aware of this change then now!
I mean a million times over in life I feel like you hear people say you don't know until you have experienced it but never more than now do i really understand that thought process...
To be married is unlike anything I thought it would be. So much better but so much tougher. I mean I knew it wasn't a fairy tale but I didn't realize I would have this microscope to my life that would constantly be challenging me to smooth out those rough spots. I didn't realize what it means to be truly selfless. To put someone else before yourself. To hurt and love so much at the same time. And being a mother on top of it all is the second craziest thing ever!
Okay what I am saying is, most of my life I have had a hard time really being able to understand what some one else is going through while they experience it. I mean I have compassion and I can empathize with situations but unless I had experienced it myself I never really could connect with the emotion and change they experienced in life. (good or bad)
However there is nothing that has left a greater impression on my life then being married and having a child. I feel like I have entered a new world that only certain people were aware of and now that i am here it has changed my view on everything. It has given me a confidence in myself that i never had before. It has helped me to see the things that are really important and the things that are simply done out of selfish desire. I have had a chance to look at how I operated in life before and how some of my choices really left me wanting. I don't know why these two changes have opened so many new doors but I am happy they have. I was happy before but I beyond that now. I do wish for the old days at times especially when I am feeling particularly self absorbed, but I wouldn't change my life even if I could. The timing was just right and now I look forward to going through my future life experiences with this new perspective. And I happy to lay to rest "single" Nicci.
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